I Take off the MASK Journal

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  • 08:27:34 am on May 21, 2007 | # | 5

    Dear Lord, how could he have done this to me? How could he forget his promises? How could he throw away in a moment all the things we have built all these years? How could he break my heart? Was it my fault? Was it me Lord? Tell me where I have gone wrong. Show me my sins, flash them before me so I may know. For I do not understand how all these things can be happening right now. I do not understand how something so good can suddenly end up the way it is today. We were so happy, Lord. We were so in love we have not a care in the world. It was just him and me, the to of us, and it was enough, probably more than enough. He was your gift to me, and I to him. We complement each other, we share so many things in common, it is to him that I opened up my heart. It is he Lord whom I trusted with all my heart.

    How then can he break it so? How can he betray our love? How can he suddenly say he doesn’t love me anymore? It seemed not so long ago when we would simply walk hand in hand along the beach, when we would share a slice of piezza and be satisfied just the same, when we would gaze at the evening sky and count the stars, content of what we had, certain that it would last forever like the millions of stars in the sky. I believed in forever. Now I don’t know anymore. I know nothing anymore. Can love be lost in an instant? Can true love really just fade away? I am so broken deep within me Lord I do not know if I can still piece together every shattered part of me.

    My friends say that it will heal in time. They say I should busy myself with this and that, date with this guy and that guy. But I don’t know Lord. Are these the things that can make me believe in love once again? Are these the things that can relieve this pain I feel in my heart? I am not only hurting, Lord. I feel so angry that I couldn’t do anything to avenge myself for this kind of suffering I do not deserve. Do I not deserve true love Lord? Do I not deserve loyalty, sincerity and respect? He makes me feel so bad, Lord. He makes me feel so bad about myself. I built my whole world around him, and he took it all away. I built my self esteem upon his admiration, and he trampled upon it as though it were trash. How can he not feel guilty for what he has done? How can he suddenly be so happy now in the arms of another woman? How can I ever build my world again? How can I ever be happy once more?

    Please help me Lord, I really don’t know what to do. Only your words can comfort me. Only your embrace can soothe my pain. I have given everything I could my Lord, and there is nothing more I can give. I kneel before you now, crushed and broken, empty and afraid to be alone. Hide me under your wings, hld me in your loving arms. Say unto me again how much you love me. Say unto me that you have called me yours and you will never ever let me go. Though men may fail, you remain faithful, steadfast and immovable as a rock. Though men may judge me for all the faults they see in me, you see my heart and reveal to me the beautiful soul you see in me. Help me to let go of y pain, teach me to forgive those who do not even ask my forgiveness. This burden is something I shouldn’t carry in my heart. This trouble is not something I should trade away my peace for. I know that I have been done wrong, the things that have happened had been so unfair. Sometimes life’s like that. Many things in this life really seem so unfair. But let me not continue being unfair to myself. Let me not punish myself anymore for the things others have done.

    I offer unto you my wounded heart, my broken heart.  I know it is you my Lord who will uphold me in the end. Let me not lose hope. Let me not cast away everything that’s good and beautiful in this life. I know that there is so much more in store for me. I know how much love I can still give away because it is you who fills me with everything that I’ll ever need. You are the one who loves me truly, eternally, unconditionally. You are the one who has always been there for me and always will be there for me. You are my one true love. You are my forever. You are my strength and my peace and my joy. Surely in your presence Lord, I do not need anything more.

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Comments

  • Jude Agard 5:39 pm on May 20, 2008 | # | Reply

    How wonderful a prayer, so meaninfully said and so desperate for God is so good and great.

  • prayerwarrior 9:38 am on March 17, 2009 | # | Reply

    Pray For Israel & Jews… Pray For Mother In Israel. Pray For USA Mothers, & russians women, Pray For Muslim Women To, Please. Pray For Working Mothers, Pray For Singel Mothers, & Singel Great GrainMother. Will Have Peace in There Heart. Mothers Who Do Not Know U As There Saver Salvation Will Get Saved In The Blood Of Jesus Christ

    Pray for Your Brothers and Sisters in Jesus Christ:
    The Apostle Paul gives us two prayer examples of what to pray for regarding the Body of Christ in Ephesians 1:15-23 and 3:14-21. Pray these prayers for your Church Leaders, your Brothers and Sisters in Christ, and for yourself.

    God promised Abraham He will bless those who blessed him and curse those who curse him. This promise was not only for Abraham, but for all of his covenant descendants – the Jewish people. Pray that our leaders will make the correct decisions to make our country a blessing to Israel. Also, Christians need to pray that the nation of Israel will recognize the Lord Jesus Christ as their Messiah and Savior, that they will have peace and success, and that they will possesses the land that God has promised them. (Genesis 12:2-3, 15:18-21, 17:8, 17:21, 22:15-18, Deuteronomy 30:2-5)

    Pray For World Homeless Families. & Please Pray For Homeless Women to… In The Name of Jesus Christ & all There health Problem In The Name Of Jesus Christ

    Pray For In The Name Of Jesus Christ

    Prays for President Obama and Wife, & Children’s and his new administration. Your efforts will work powerfully in our nation.
    Attorney General
    —Eric Holder
    Secretary of State
    —Hillary Clinton
    Chief of Staff
    —Rahm Emanuel
    Chair, Council of Economic Advisers
    —Christina Romer

    If my people who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land.” (NIV)

    Pray For Our Youth & Young Adults.In The Name Of Jesus Christ
    A family that prays together stays together.

    Please Pray for Street Bullies In The Name Of Jesus Christ & Pray For Schools
    Pray For The Family Live Be side me & Around me. Bless There Home & Work & Shool. Bless There health to, & The One’s who do not know Jesus As There Saver Salvation will Get Saved In The Blood Of Jesus.

    Prayer of a Mother whose children are no longer at home. In The Name Of Jesus Christ

    I’M RAYING FOR YOU AND OTHER PEOPLE AROUND ME
    Prayer for families is the very foundation that keeps a family unit together. Have you heard the phrase “A family that prays together stays together”? The concept is true – a family that has their focus on praying to the Lord Jesus Christ has a foundation that may be shaken at times, but it will withstand all that comes against them.

    Prayers for Justice and Peace

    Please Pray for Other People Have Heart Problem. & Diabetes, In The Name Of Jesus Christ &, Athesma Problems.
    And the Blind In The Name Of Jesus Christ. Pray For Israel & Jews… Pray For World Homeless Families. & Please Pray For Homeless Women to… In The Name of Jesus Christ & all There health Problem In The Name Of Jesus Christ… Prays for President Obama and Wife, & Children’s and his new administration. Your efforts will work powerfully in our nation.
    Pray For World Homeless Families. & Please Pray For Homeless Women to… In The Name of Jesus Christ & all There health Problem In The Name Of Jesus Christ…
    Hear our prayers, O God, In The name of Jesus Christ I Pray

    I do pray that any of our nation’s leaders who do not know Jesus Christ as their personal Savior would develop a relationship with Him. Pray that those who are believers would grow closer to Him each day. In The Name Of Jesus Christ I Pray. Amen
    Hear our prayers, O God, In The name of Jesus Christ I Pray
    Praying For Every One Around Me
    Pray For Our Enemies

    O God, whose Son commanded us to love our enemies: Lead them and us from prejudice to truth; deliver them and us from hatred, cruelty, and revenge; and in your good time enable us all to stand reconciled before you; through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.

    I do pray that any of our nation’s leaders who do not know Jesus Christ as their personal Savior would develop a relationship with Him. Pray that those who are believers would grow closer to Him each day. In The Name Of Jesus Christ I Pray. Amen

  • prayerwarrior 8:43 am on April 5, 2009 | # | Reply

    FATHER GOD SEND REVIVAL, AND LET IT START WITH ME” Pray For USA troops In The Name Of Jesus christ.

    Pray For USA Troops In The Name Of Jesus Christ, Pray For The Vets In The Name Of Jesus Christ

    Pray for Denmark, & China, & German , & Pray For USA. In The name Of Jesus christ

    Prays for President Obama and Wife, & Children’s and his new administration. Your efforts will work powerfully in our nation. In The Name of Jesus Christ

    Pray For Israel & Jews… Pray For Mother In Israel. “Brethren, my heart’s desire and prayer to God for Israel is that they may be saved”

    Pray For USA Mothers, & russians women, Pray For Muslim Women To, Please. Pray For Working Mothers, Pray For Singel Mothers, & Singel Great GrainMother. Will Have Peace in There Heart. Mothers Who Do Not Know U As There Saver Salvation Will Get Saved In The Blood Of Jesus Christ

    If my people…

    who are called by my name will humble
    themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways,
    then…

    I will hear from heaven and forgive their sin and heal their land.

    2 Chronicles 7:14

    Pray for Your Brothers and Sisters in Jesus Christ:
    The Apostle Paul gives us two prayer examples of what to pray for regarding the Body of Christ in Ephesians 1:15-23 and 3:14-21. Pray these prayers for your Church Leaders, your Brothers and Sisters in Christ, and for yourself.

    God promised Abraham He will bless those who blessed him and curse those who curse him. This promise was not only for Abraham, but for all of his covenant descendants – the Jewish people. Pray that our leaders will make the correct decisions to make our country a blessing to Israel. Also, Christians need to pray that the nation of Israel will recognize the Lord Jesus Christ as their Messiah and Savior, that they will have peace and success, and that they will possesses the land that God has promised them. (Genesis 12:2-3, 15:18-21, 17:8, 17:21, 22:15-18, Deuteronomy 30:2-5)

    Pray For World Homeless Families. & Please Pray For Homeless Women to… In The Name of Jesus Christ & all There health Problem In The Name Of Jesus Christ

    Pray For In The Name Of Jesus Christ

    Prays for President Obama and Wife, & Children’s and his new administration. Your efforts will work powerfully in our nation.
    Attorney General
    —Eric Holder
    Secretary of State
    —Hillary Clinton
    Chief of Staff
    —Rahm Emanuel
    Chair, Council of Economic Advisers
    —Christina Romer
    President: George W. Bush
    Vice-President: Richard Cheney
    Secretary of State: Colin L. Powell
    Secretary of Treasury: Paul O’Neill
    Secretary of Defense: Donald Rumsfeld
    Attorney General: John Ashcroft
    Secretary of the Interior: Gale Norton
    Secretary of Agriculture: Ann Veneman
    Secretary of Commerce: Donald L. Evans
    Secretary of Labor: Elaine Chao
    Secretary of Health and Human Services: Tommy Thompson
    Secretary of Housing and Urban Development: Mel Martinez
    Secretary of Transportation: Norman Mineta
    Secretary of Energy: Bill Richardson
    Secretary of Education: Rod Paige
    Secretary of Veteran Affairs: Anthony Principi

    Supreme Court Justices:
    William H. Rehnquist (Chief Justice)
    David Souter
    Sandra Day-O’Connor
    Clarence Thomas
    Anthony Kennedy
    Antonin Scalia
    Steven Breyer
    John P. Stevens
    Ruth Bader Ginsberg

    If my people who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land.” (NIV)

    Pray For Our Youth & Young Adults.In The Name Of Jesus Christ
    A family that prays together stays together.

    Please Pray for Street Bullies In The Name Of Jesus Christ & Pray For Schools
    Pray For The Family Live Be side me & Around me. Bless There Home & Work & Shool. Bless There health to, & The One’s who do not know Jesus As There Saver Salvation will Get Saved In The Blood Of Jesus.

    Prayer of a Mother whose children are no longer at home. In The Name Of Jesus Christ

    I’M RAYING FOR YOU AND OTHER PEOPLE AROUND ME

    Prayer for families is the very foundation that keeps a family unit together. Have you heard the phrase “A family that prays together stays together”? The concept is true – a family that has their focus on praying to the Lord Jesus Christ has a foundation that may be shaken at times, but it will withstand all that comes against them.

    Prayers for Justice and Peace

    Please Pray for Other People Have Heart Problem. & Diabetes, In The Name Of Jesus Christ &, Athesma Problems.
    And the Blind In The Name Of Jesus Christ. Pray For Israel & Jews… Pray For World Homeless Families. & Please Pray For Homeless Women to… In The Name of Jesus Christ & all There health Problem In The Name Of Jesus Christ… Prays for President Obama and Wife, & Children’s and his new administration. Your efforts will work powerfully in our nation.
    Pray For World Homeless Families. & Please Pray For Homeless Women to… In The Name of Jesus Christ & all There health Problem In The Name Of Jesus Christ…
    Hear our prayers, O God, In The name of Jesus Christ I Pray

    I do pray that any of our nation’s leaders who do not know Jesus Christ as their personal Savior would develop a relationship with Him. Pray that those who are believers would grow closer to Him each day. In The Name Of Jesus Christ I Pray. Amen
    Hear our prayers, O God, In The name of Jesus Christ I Pray
    Praying For Every One Around Me
    Pray For Our Enemies

    O God, whose Son commanded us to love our enemies: Lead them and us from prejudice to truth; deliver them and us from hatred, cruelty, and revenge; and in your good time enable us all to stand reconciled before you; through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.

    I do pray that any of our nation’s leaders who do not know Jesus Christ as their personal Savior would develop a relationship with Him. Pray that those who are believers would grow closer to Him each day. In The Name Of Jesus Christ I Pray. Amen

    God’s word is clear on the who and the what of Singing praises to God.

    God’s people are to Sing Praises to God with spiritual songs about the Lord with melody

    This great Nation.. the United Kingdom is in serious need of a revival. Please join your prayers with us as we ask God to bring revival to this nation. It will start in his church.. God’s church needs and has to repent on an individual and corporate basis. Please pass on to all your friends

  • prayerwarrior 10:41 pm on May 3, 2009 | # | Reply

    Please Pray for Street Bullies In The Name Of Jesus Christ & Pray For Schools
    Pray For The Family Live Be side me & Around me. Bless There Home & Work & Shool. Bless There health to, & The One’s who do not know Jesus As There Saver Salvation will Get Saved In The Blood Of Jesus.

    Prayer of a Mother whose children are no longer at home. In The Name Of Jesus Christ
    I’M RAYING FOR YOU AND OTHER PEOPLE AROUND ME
    Prayer for families is the very foundation that keeps a family unit together. Have you heard the phrase “A family that prays together stays together”? The concept is true – a family that has their focus on praying to the Lord Jesus Christ has a foundation that may be shaken at times, but it will withstand all that comes against them.
    Prayers for Justice and Peace

  • Pam S 5:19 am on May 29, 2009 | # | Reply

    Wow…this prayer truly hit home and really touched me deeply. I actually began to cry as I read it. I have been seperated now for two years and it seems that, you and I lived the same life and ask God the same questions. I still hurt and cry from time to time and find myself jealous of my ex-husband at times. I do wonder how he can move on so easy and be so happy. I feel that I gave up my life to make him happy. At times I feel I put him before God (perhaps that was my problem). I still hurt but I know He is guiding my steps and slowly pointing me in the directions of His Will, which is meant to be true happiness.


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